Hi... I'm Camille

Friday

2006-08-11T22:38:31Z

Bretty's here. She's drawing a picture of a girl or something.
I wuv her.
Crapness.... I'm bored. And I need to shower. My hair is dirty even though I just washed it yesterday.
Ghey.
And I want my hair to grow faster. Pieces of dead protein shit.
POOP!

specialgirl745 @ 2006-06-12T10:30:00

2006-06-12T17:33:40Z

School is out now. Wow. Now I'm looking for a job so I can have somewhat of a life over summer, haha.

I'm in a bit of a dilemma right now... shitty deal.

tight late.

Days after Christmas...

2005-12-28T00:02:29Z

Christmas was pretty good this year. It was the first one I actually spent down at my house because I'm usually up north at my dad's house. Speaking of my dad, he's coming down tomorrow with Yvonne and the dogs. I can't wait to see them, it's been a couple of weeks since I've seen my dad and I miss him a lot.

About a half hour ago, two guys came to my door and Shanell and I were just kinda standing there... and in the end, we ended up paying $30 for a 2 year subscription to Maxim. I like Maxim... but I kinda want my money back. Damn. It sucks though, cuz the people kinda make you feel obligated to buy something. So now Maxim is gonna be sent to my house and Shanelle and I are sharing the wealth. Sweet deal.

There are some things that I just really wish would stop...

2005-10-19T17:30:06Z

I don't want Taylor to be sad or upset.

I don't want to have the reality that I'm almost 17 and always see couples around me... it's SO irritating, haha.

I don't want to live with my mom and stepdad... moving out sounds nice.

I don't want to deal with the fact that my dad lives so far away, even though he does visit every other week.

I don't want to deal with the drama that only certain people bring.

Fuck.

This is kinda lame... yeah....

<3 camille

Being at school

2005-10-17T15:30:26Z

Is muy Fun-oh.

Hells yeah.... except for when there are big reports or projects are due... fo sho.

<3 camille

The Laguna Arts Festival...

2005-08-21T19:47:11Z

Well, I'm going to be going there today to see the entire exhibit. I think it'll be fun and all that good stuff, haha. I'm really eager to see everyone else's art too. I'll take pictures and try to load them later today.

By the way, I was fortunate enough to have one of my pieces accepted into the festival. So that's awesome as well, since in the line of competitions they get more and more difficult to be accepted into. Yeah...

<333 Camille

specialgirl745 @ 2005-07-22T09:39:00

2005-07-22T16:40:16Z

I feel like crap.

Somebody make it stop.

Fuck this game!!!

<3 Camille

Blee Bloo Blah Blah Blah

2005-07-12T01:06:08Z

I need to turn my job applications in, hang out with people, show Randy my designs for Chronic Industries, get a life, and get seeeexual.... heeeeeeeealin'! Hahaha... I just like that line... even though I can't remember what movie it's from... but it has Eddie Murphy and Owen Wilson in it. Damn. But that movie sucked anyways, so it doesn't really matter.

Someone should start calling me at about 8 in the morning to wake my lazy ass up... I don't wanna wake up at noon every damn day. Waking up at noon means that I'm wasting my summer (in my opinion), and I don't like that happening. It's like... what a waste of life... sleeping... ugh. That's the number one of my problems of not fuckin' living life to it's "fullest"... me being a lazy ass tard and sleeping half the damn day. Sick life.

<3 Camille

Damn

2005-06-23T18:10:57Z

It's been such a fuckin' long time since I've updated.... so I will try to update more often.

I feel stupid that I haven't been keeping my LJ up-to-par and all that, yet I still have one. Fuck. So I'm just gonna keep it more current.

BOOMers

2005-02-12T21:29:09Z

Heather's birthday get together was last night... at BOOMers, of course. It was really fun. I got to kill many a zombie in House of the Dead II, which is always fun. Play the interactive drum kit and got uber fuckin mad when the bass drum wouldn't work when i was trying to do it... so I threw the drumsticks on metal chords at it and hurt my finger. Joyce came so that made me happier. Heather's mom said that i smoked so that pissed me off when I found out. And I met Andrea for the first time and we all made fun of Ronald McDonald's picture on the cups and small fry baggies at McDonalds. I made a little movie of it... twas fun.

SCHOOOOOL'S OUT FOR... uhh.... never!

2004-12-16T02:24:43Z

Why does the academic side of school have to suck so bad? I hate it with a passion, and it's probably because I'm kinda failing most of my classes.

There's nothing else to say about the "school" part of school, but I love my friends at Connelly. Practically everyone there is so great, hahaha. Some people are really annoying, and if you ask who they are- I'll tell you.. to put it simply. But it's NOT Kristine, Jade, Hilary, Therese, Aly, or Sara- if you're thinking that! I'll just say that it's Natalie, Domenica, Grace, and Crystal... because it's true. Crystal bugs me too much with her giddyness of trendy bands and shit like that, Natalie freaks me out by the what she says and the way that she looks and acts, Domenica.... what is there to say about that?, and Grace because she talks in the third person and is a suck-up to all of the teachers and reminds me of a parasite. OKAY... I'm glad I got that off my chest... even though I state it on a daily basis. Yeah... well, uh... I'm gonna go now...

delicious...

2004-12-06T00:57:35Z

i am currently eating some microwavable mac n' cheese. it's not the best... but it's not the worst. from what i can remember, it's been in the freezer for around a year or so, but it's good nonetheless!

Thanksgiving

2004-11-26T00:49:28Z

Well, people are still here and we've eaten already. Twas good. Airica and Taylor are watching a movie... and I'm bored because I don't really have anything to do... and that's why I'm updating my LJ.

Well, then....

2004-11-08T00:38:08Z

Holy crap... my birthday is in two days. Wow. I can't really believe that I'm gonna be 16 in 2 days...... jeez! That's insane! At least I actually get some sort of a party this year- no duh, "sweet 16" what did ya expect!?!

"Today I screwed up again"

2004-10-20T23:07:43Z

Today was alright... art was the best! Currently we're drawing portraits of people in black and white (we had to get b+w picture out of a magazine) and I chose Teppei Teranishi from Thrice! He looks like such a darling in the picture, I swear! In the middle of class I just couldn't stop saying "OH HE'S SO ADORABLE! I JUST WANNA GIVE HIM A HUUUUUUG!" hahahahaaha, I was actin all weird and shit, obviously. But, in my opinion, it looks really good... I like it, at least. Another good thing is that it actually looks like him so you can tell who it is if you know the band or something like that.

I think that Aly got pissed off at me cuz I wouldn't shut up about how adorable Teppei is... so I did it more just to bug her and would shake her arm and be all like "ALY!" "what" "...... isn't he ADORABLE?!?!?!" "Oh my gawd, Camille....." hahahhahahaha, it was hilarious.

Math class was... interesting. I got to be the teacher! WOOT! Gaby didn't know how to do one of the questions so I was told to write it one the board so that everyone could understand it and stuff... Britney called me Mrs. Smith and I said "IT'S MISS SMITH, RETARD! I'M NOT MARRIED!.... you're not a retard!" It was fun stuff.

heyyyyyy!

2004-10-17T17:16:29Z

Well, I haven't been on LJ in a while... it's cuz I have a myspace (which seem to be a lot easier to handle). I dunno- it's not that I'm computer illiterate... it's just that I don't wanna use all my time updating.

Yay! My birthday is in about a month! November 9 to be exact. But, apparently I was gonna have a surprise party... and my mom found out about it and cancelled it. Wow- isn't she s great person? I haven't really celebrated my borthday in a couple of years... and you only turn "sweet 16" once. Oh, well... this is just one more reason as to why I get pissed at my mom. Of course she said, "Maybe next year!" to Heather- who has been planning this for months on end with my friends from Harbor. Obviously, Heather was pissed off to the extreme and was saying "I FUCKING HATE YOUR MOM! SHE IS THE BIGGEST FUCKIN' BITCH I KNOW! SHE'S THE DEVIL!" So I said, "Yeah, I know- I have to live with that every day."

Whatever... I just want to forget that I even have a birthday.

I LIKE THE BUNNIES!!!

2004-07-30T20:54:10Z

Don't you think it's wierd that whenever I update it's about 3 or 4 times in one day? Well, I finally found an icon that I like... with the cuddly wuddly BUNNIES!!! hehehehehee!

the bunnies will watch over you.... ALWAYS!!!

Message Boards Galore

2004-07-30T18:43:30Z

Lately I've been getting really bored. People need to call me so I can go somewhere! Damnit, I swear... summer is both the best and worst time of the year. It's when you have lots of free time but then with all that free time you don't know what to do and it makes your life all ug and tired.

This entire week I've been going on random message boards to pass the time. Hey, it's better than doing nothing... and at least it can get interesting. From going on these message boards every day, I've realized that I really need to get a life. Too bad I can't exactly drive and neither can half of my friends.

Grr!! The friggin RealPlayer won't work! I need to listen to something but this stupid computer is so screwed up that it can't function right! We (my family) has been trying to get it fixed for a couple of weeks now and still no one has come in to fix it. I better end this entry pretty soon...

My brother is being retarded. Every day he wakes up around noon and then does nothing until someone calls him or he has to go to work. Then he goes out with Stacie and Rianna or Kristin and comes back around midnight or one a.m. He needs to wake up and smell the roses. But then again, I don't want to be a hypocrite because I don't really do anything either... that's different though.

-Camille

P.S.- Hey Andy, look, I wrote in my livejournal! *twirls fingers in the air* Woooooo!!

mmmmm....

2004-07-28T20:25:21Z

This sandwich is so good!!! It's a peanut butter and honey sandwich. CRAP! It just dripped on my pants... oh well.

Today I'm going to the fair with Andi, Ruben, and Betsy. It been a while since I last saw Ruben... not since the last day of school. I'm so excited to go! Two weeks ago I went with Heather and we met up with her stepsister, Jessika, and our other friend, Mary. That was good times, usually the fair isn't that fun, but if you go with the right people then you'll most likely have a good time.

I can't wait to see Ruben, he's so adorable! He and Andi make the cutest couple, but it's partially because they're... smaller than some people. For some reason, I wanna give both of them sugar. Andi had told me that when she and Ruben went to the fair this year, Ruben had an entire coffee drink so he was really hyper... it was supposedly very entertaining. I'd pay to see Ruben hyper because most of the time he's so calm and stuff, but not in a bad way.

Oh well, I should go get ready to go to the fair now...

aw jeez

2004-07-25T23:01:54Z

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http://www.otep.com/shadowsoldiers_warhead.html

i think you just need to click on one of these

Otep's newest video... I saw it a few days ago

2004-07-25T22:46:44Z

This music video is AAAWESOME!!!! I like it... I like it a lot!

Why am I gone so much?

2004-07-24T21:16:07Z

Well, I'm back from my trip up north. It was fun, to say the least, because the San Francisco Bay area is an area that I would like to move to someday.

I went on a tour of USF, which was catholic and had many priests. Apparently, my mom told my dad that I had wanted to visit there because it's a Christian school... but the college that I had originally said was UC San Francisco. My dad said that he thought I would've wanted to check out UCSF since I had mentioned it to him before, but when I told my mom she got it confused... again. I mean- come on- between those schools, there is obviously a big difference in how they run their learning programs and everything in general- because all schools are different.

Well, just about five or ten minutes ago Mary called me... and she invited me to Disneyland. I wanna go really bad, but my mom will probably be all ug and tired and say that I have to go work at the Pacific Coast Triathlon. Damnit. Why is it that whenever I get invited out that somehow it gets fucked up? It's so upsetting to know that you're not gonna do anything for the rest of the day because someone won't let you. But it's not my mom's fault entirely... she says that I don't give her "enough information" 'cause she has to be all ug about that kind of shizzit. She is overprotective of me though, and I can't stand it since I'd like to get away from her and having to take her shit about making decisions for me. It may sound like I'm making a big deal out of it, but it's one of the only things that's holding me back- especially when I want my own social independence.

My headache is getting worse, so I'm gonna go take care of it before something goes wrong and my head explodes or something drastic happens... which probably won't... all I need is excedrine.

a looooong survey

2004-07-14T19:01:41Z

What is your name?: Camille Smith
Are you named after anyone?: my middle name, yes
What's your screename?: SpecialRockGrl13
Would you name a child of yours after you?: no, that's kinda weird
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Roy
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: uhh
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:

Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
Single?: yes
If not, do you want to be?: *cough*
Birthdate: November 9, 1988
Your age: 15
Age you act: adults say 20-ish, but my friends say 16 or 18... but sometimes 6 or 8
Age you wish you were: 18 or 19
Your height: 5'5"
Eye color: blueish green
Happy with it?: yesh
Hair color: dark brown
Happy with it?: yeah, but i wanna dye it for fun
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty
Your living arrangement: in a house?
Your family: mom, stepdad, brother
Have any pets?: 2 dogs and pudgy cat!!!
Whats your job?:
Piercings?: ears... 2 times in each
Tattoos?: not yet *giggles*
Obsessions?: music, piercings and tattoos, guys
Addictions?: computer, music
Do you speak another language?: a bit of Spanish
Have a favorite quote?: "And now we're in Delaware!..... hi.... we're in... Delaware..."
Do you have a webpage?: not really, only journals

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: it depends
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
Do you have any secrets?: yeah, i guess so
Do you hate yourself?: no
Do you like your handwriting?: sure, why not?
Do you have any bad habits?: yeah
What is the compliment you get from most people?:
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Look at This Kid!
What's your biggest fear?: fingernails being pulled back!!! *pukes*
Can you sing?: i think i can... depends if you wanna hear me or not
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no, that's fucked up... i do it as a joke!
Are you a loner?: what?
What are your #1 priorities in life?: music/friends
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: yes i would, i'm one cool muthafucka!
Are you a daredevil?: not from what I've witnessed
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i fear failure
Are you passive or agressive?: umm... both, i think
Do you have a journal?: what is this that i'm writing in as we speak... or type
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: uh, i don't really know, and i don't really want to say
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: to get better grades
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yeah, half of the time at least
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah
Do you think life has been good so far?: yeah, everyting happens for a reason
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: everything happens for a reason
What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes and my arms
And least?: my stomach and thighs
Do you think you are good looking?: yeah
Are you confident?: about my looks? yeah
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i took a test that said i was Nala from the Lion King... it was at Disneyland
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes

Do You...
Smoke?: sure why not
Do drugs?: sure that too
Read the newspaper?: not as much as i used to
Pray?: yeah
Go to church?: when I am forced to
Talk to strangers who IM you?: yeah
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no... i sleep with pillows
Take walks in the rain?: sometimes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: yeah
Drive?: not really... i crashed my moms car
Like to drive fast?: yeah... when i'm the passenger

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: yeah
Hurt yourself?: yeah, of course
Been out of the country?: yes... south of the border and beyond!
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes!
Been in love?: sure
Done drugs?: sure
Gone skinny dipping?: no
Had a medical emergency?: i don't remember
Had surgery?: yeah... on my feet
Ran away from home?: yes... who hasn't?
Played strip poker?: yes!! hahahhaa, it's so much fun!
Gotten beaten up?: not really... but i've been hit a couple times
Beaten someone up?: maybe emotionally, but physically... not really
Been picked on?: yeah
Been on stage?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeah
Thought about suicide?: of course
Pulled an all nighter?: yeah
If yes, what is your record?: a day or two... i like to sleep, what can i say!
Gone one day without food?: yeah, not many though
Talked on the phone all night?: no... only a couple of hours
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: most likely... i can't remember, haha!
Slept all day?: yeah
Killed someone?: no.. but I plan to XD
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yes... yes i have, many times
Kissed the same sex?: not sexually... my mom and stuff- EWWWWW, MOM!!!
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: not really... titty tag is pretty much it.
Been betrayed?: quite a few times
Had a dream that came true?: yeah, it's fuckin freaked me out!!!
Broken the law?: yeah, haha it's fuuun
Met a famous person?: yeah, twas fun, veery fun
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: i really hope not!!!
On purpose?: do bugs count?
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah, and i feel like shit for telling
Stolen anything?: maybe
Been on radio/tv?: if i have, i wouldn't know
Been in a mosh-pit?: yeah... tis fun
Had a nervous breakdown?: maybe.. i dunno
Bungee jumped?: fuck no and i'm not planning on it!
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes
Miracles?: of course
Astrology?: yeah
Magic?: yeah
God?: yes
Satan?: yes
Santa?: meh *shrugs* i believe he was a real person
Ghosts?: to some extent
Luck?: sometimes
Love at first sight?: yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: yeah
Easter bunny?: BUNNIeS ARE CUUUUTE!!!! but not really
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: depends
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no, if there was i'd be rich
Do you wish on stars?: YES!!!
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: no, how the hell would i know if i'm not dead?!?
Do you believe in organized religion?: uhhhhh....
Where do you think we go when we die?: in the ground

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
Who is your best friend?: heather!!
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: lyndsey, i believe
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:
Your favourite inside joke?:
Thing you're picked on most about?:
Who's your longest known friend?: Lyndsey
Newest?: uh...
Shyest?: Megan... awwww!
Funniest?: who the hell knows!! that's a free-for-all!
Sweetest?: Shannon
Closest?: Lauren
Weirdest?: Heather
Smartest?: Lyndsey, Allie, Nick... i don't really look at people's report cards
Ditziest?: um... i dunno... Heather, i guess
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Kaylani, Erenie
Last person you talked to online?: Christina
Who do you talk to most online?: Megan, Christina, Andi
Who are you on the phone with most?: Heather, Emma, Kevin, Justin... i dunno
Who do you trust most?: Lyndsey, Michelle, Heather
Who listens to your problems?: Emma, Taylor, Heather, Lyndsey, Andi, Christina (both of them), lots of people if they want to know!
Who do you fight most with?: uhhh.... Shaya, i guess... we don't really talk anymore
Who's the nicest?: Lyndsey
Who's the most outgoing?: Jessika
Who's the best singer?: i dunno... James, most likely
Who's on your shit-list?: not many people... i think
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: not really, no
Who's your second family?: i dunno... me and my brother... Heather or Lyndsey or my cousins
Do you always feel understood?: no
Who's the loudest friend?: Heather.... definitely Heather
Do you trust others easily?: that depends
Who's house were you last at?: uhh... my dad's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: i haven't found that person yet... if i have, i haven't hugged them
Do your friends know you?: i guess so
Friend that lives farthest away: Christina... on the east coast

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
What do you find romantic?: i dunno
Turn-on?: if you wanna know, ask me personally! *giggles*
Turn-off?: i dunno... if you're an asshole, that would be it
First kiss?: haven't had it yet *cries*<--jk
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: i'd feel... wierd
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: i don't know! if i feel comfortable with the person then i'd go out with them, i guess
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: yeah, sure
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: i dunno
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: sometimes, i try to positive about it
What is best about the opposite sex?: their hair and how great their personalities and looks can be
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: i dunno
What's the last present someone gave you?: umm
Are you in love?: i think so
Do you consider your significant other hot?: most likely... if i had one!

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: my stepdad *shivers* hate!!!
You wanted to kill?: my stepdad or mom
That you laughed at?: Taylor
That laughed at you?: Kevin... on the phone i think
That turned you on?: i don't really know
You went shopping with?: my stepmom Yvonne... yay Victoria's Secret!!!
That broke your heart?: i don't know
To disappoint you?: my mom
To ask you out?: Heather!! haha, not on an actual date though
To make you cry?: my mom
To brighten up your day?: Emma or Heather
That you thought about?: That special someone who's name starts with a 'B'
You saw a movie with?: my dad and Taylor
You talked to on the phone?: some guy asking for my mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Christina
You saw?: my mom
You lost?: i dunno

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: what do you mean? i'm inside and on the computer... and i'm single
Will it be with your significant other?: i don't believe so
Or some random person?: you never know!
What are you wearing right now?: levi's, a black bra, and a light blue tank top cuz my clothes are in the dryer
Body part you're touching right now: foot... with my other foot
What are you worried about right now?: if my mom will get mad at me today
What book are you reading?: the book of who the hell cares!
What's on your mousepad?: nothing, i don't have one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: bored, eager, sore (this chair isn't too comfy), needy, wierd
Are you bored?: yes
Are you tired?: not really
Are you talking to anyone online?: yeah
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: content
Are you listening to music?: no... but the dishwasher is making noise

i stole this from christina

Holy shit, man... look at this hahaha!!

2004-07-14T16:30:46Z

Well HEY!!

2004-07-14T16:20:43Z

I think that it's been a while since I last wrote something here. The thing is that I've been kinda busy and haven't been around a computer or anything with an internet connection.

Yesterday, I went to see a psychiatrist named Dr. Greenburg. He's a pretty cool guy, and he obviously has his PhD and stuff like that. Basically all he did was ask me questions about how I feel, if I think my medication is working for me, what problems I want to fix or get help on- stuff like that. The surprising thing to me is that he said that I don't really have depression, it's just all of the issues I'm dealing with and how I try to handle what is going on. So, I think it went very well to meet Dr. Greenburg for the first time so that I get some help with my medications and those types of things.

For some reason, I think that I need to go out more... with friends and stuff. I really want to go out more so I won't feel like no one likes me and get lonely, because that shit sucks ass.

Today I'm gonna call Megan and Julie to hang out or something. I want Julie to come over so she could try out playing the bass again since we both want to be in bands. It'll be fun and stuff... so yeah....